I know I can’t keep living in this dead & dying dream
Each time I'm off the comp, out of my blogger account, I've got so much to say, so much to blog about. I'll try to remember then & wanted to blog about it the next time I come in but know what? I forgot. Fuck this dumb memory of mine, it's falling. ):< Then someday I'll forget about you, you, you, you & you, him, him, him, her, her & her.
Another Wednesday without you & more to go.
Or perhaps not anymore. :/
School was tiring. Damn tired. Slept at 12.15am last night & I'm still tired. Omgz, I think I should sleep at 6pm, hohoho. x) Got back some results & I'm quite happy with it though I barely passed. :)
English - 19/25
Chinese - 52/100(like omgz, I actually passed!)
Maths - 27/50
Literature - 14/25
SS - 4/25(ROFLOL)
Art - 14/25
Baby's happy for me & so is Mom & Dad. :) I'm so glad. At least I managed to pass most of them. Hahah. Mom was like "Why your SS like that!" & baby was like "HUHHHHHHHHHHHH!? How can!" Ok, bloody funny reactions they give. Well, went home to get my piano books & my dearest loveliest maid cooked my fav fried rice & I ate before I left the house to meet Bestaye & Sass. :) She's uber nice luh, I love her! Met the girls & went to sit around at Mos. Drank corn soup after such a long time & Sassy got her ice milk tea. :D Sat around & Qiaos came. She took her lunch & went home. Talked till about 4+ & went for piano. Xiao man tou papaaaaaaaaaaaa was there when I finished my lessons. Talked & laughed a lot. :D Had fun luh, disturbing them, acting all retarded. Left Mos at around 5plus, went Popular to get marker. My memory never fail to play tricks on me. I remembered I've got more than one thing to get from Popular but when I got there, I only remember I need to get the marker. Fuck man when I got home later, I realised I need to get a proper ruler. !@#$&% ARGH. Accompanied Bestaye to the mama shop to get her batteries & went home.
Baby isn't at her best tday 'cos of her disappointing results. I know no shit about whatever points but from what baby said, all I know that is, she isn't happy with it & neither her parents are happy about it. Hm, I know I can't help much & I feel so helpless. I was so worried & I kept thinking how is she & al. She was crying on the phone & acks, I feel so useless. I guess I was the reason & the cause of her disappointing results. If I hadn't disturbed her when she was studying, then she'd have done a lot better. BLAH UGH. >:@
Baby I'm sorry but I wish I could help. How I wish I was there to hold you close, give you a tiny peck on your cheek & tell you everything's gonna be fine. I wanna be there to catch your tears, they're precious to me. Hugs baby, I love you. Have all the time you want, take it & I'm sure you'll heal ok? I'm here to build up your self confidence, I'll be here all the time. Silly girl, be glad that Mom's acting this way & Dad's behaving all odd. It just shows that they care, right? :)
Ooh & baby.. I miss you so much today. More than so much. More than most. ):
Ray J's Anytime is playing & I like this song. :D hee.
Whenever I'm down, I think of you to lift me up
And if you ever need a friend
If you ever need someone to talk to
I'm right here
I'll never leave
I love you
Part of the lyrics & it's all for you. :)
Baby's sleeping & I'm missing her so much. I don't think I'll be able to see her. I'm missing her so much that I'm flipping through the photographs. Sigh, it's okay. I think I'll be able to get through all these. It isn't her fault neither does she like it being grounded.
Absence make the heart fonder.
I can't forget what you once told me, it kept replaying.
It's reminding me of how we used to be.
Baby, I wanna be able to meet you three days straight again.
>:'( BAH ok that was just random ok. I love you!
This time, watch what this weak heart can do.
Watch my heart tear, gone & shattered.
Emo.
(& that reminds me of her, who doesn't watch her waxed hair nor bathe, omgz ewww)
I've been missing you so much, I have to say
<3,
7:39 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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